Rough Start to New Year

Well, it’s been a rough start to the new year.  I had intentions of managing my time better so that 2009 might be a year of increased productivity for me.  Everything was perfect.  I had looked over my list of goals and was in complete agreement with them and committed to put forth the effort to achieve them.  I even created daily schedules for the workweek, Saturday, and Sunday so that I could better schedule the key routines that serve as the foundation of a life that is not wasted.  My health is good, and I had an optimistic attitude.  But there was just one problem.  Life happened.  The theoretical collapsed into the practical and my plans and schedules and good intentions blew up in my face faster than I could say “Happy New Year”. 

I’m recuperating now.  I’ve just come off a week of work where there were nights that I just slept 3 hrs.  The question that rang in my head was “Why in the hell am I doing this?”.  Maybe I’m still asking this question.  I’m a single guy with no family to take care of, busting my butt, losing sleep, in order to review 100+ page documents so that I can sleep 3hrs to wake up again to review some more 100+ page documents in addition to the 100+ emails that I will receive for the day.  Why?  For what purpose?  Honestly, I’m not fully sure.  I can’t help but think this is a test, like some type of training for bigger things to come.  As if God is saying, “Learn to handle this, and you’ll be able to handle what’s coming”. 

Some would think I’m crazy to be complaining.  I get paid well.  In this economy it’s a blessing just to have work.  I’m very thankful for that.  I could be struggling in many other ways.  And yet, I don’t think my circumstance is any less of a trial.  It is a trial to me precisely because it is trying.  Times like these try my patience and my faith.  Certainly God would want me to have enough time to read his word and do his works, so why would he slam me with so much work?  Maybe I should stop working?

I don’t think that’s the answer.  I think there is a temptation in me to quit when going gets tough.  But that is not what Christ did.  If anyone had the right to complain about circumstances not being fair, it was Jesus.  He really got a raw deal.  He had every right not to be treated the way he was by those who beat and crucified him.  He very well could have quit and decided to make a run for it to Asia.  But he didn’t.  He chose to stay in there even when things were excruciatingly tough.  And he did this by the power of God.  There was a vision that he held to which kept him going.  There was a joy that was set before him, which gave him the strength to persevere in the midst of dire circumstances.  This week was a bad week.  But I’m alive and healthy and my faith is in tact and my optimism is strong.  There will be worse weeks, and I will make it through those as well with my faith and trust in the Lord’s goodness in tact by the same love and grace of God that carried Jesus to and through the cross and ultimately in victory over all that hinders man’s ability to worship God in all his magnificent splendor.

New Year’s Resolution

I am always excited about the new year. This year is no different. It is a time of new beginnings. It is a time to put away the sins and dirt of the past and look forward to a year of victory. It is hopeful and bright and maybe this will be the year that we really start to make progress in our life goals.

Well, the realist in me doesn’t want to get too hopeful about the new year. This is the 28th new year’s day that God has given me the pleasure of experiencing and each one of the past 27 I’ve gone on to fail miserably at achieving my goals for the year. Okay, so I admit, I probably didn’t have too many goals as a toddler, but certainly in my teen years and onward I had them, and inevitably I failed to achieve many of them.

The hardest ones to achieve are the ones that can’t be done in a single exertion.  It’s easy to get up the nerve to run on the treadmill for 30 minutes.  But that’s no one’s new year’s resolution.  People resolve to things like losing 20 pounds this year, or getting a six-pack of abs.  Achieving those goals will take more than a treadmill run or two.  It takes time and it takes discipline. 

Discipline is the dreaded “D” word.  No one is naturally really fond of it.  And yet it is our only hope if we are to keep any of our new year’s resolutions.  And so I am not going into this new year naively thinking that the novelty of the new year will carry enough power to enable me to keep my resolutions.  No, that would be insanity.  But perhaps, by the grace of God, I might be able to parlay some of that new year enthusiasm into creating some routines and schedules that will foster the discipline needed to stick with the daily actions that I need to do in order to uphold my resolutions.  I’ve already started by creating a daily schedule for weekdays and then one for Saturday and one for Sunday.  On each schedule, I’ve put down those daily actions that I believe will enable me to achieve the short and long-term goals that I have for myself.  That way I hope to not leave those things up to chance and spur of the moment inclination. 

So will this all work?  Only time can tell.  Probably in the end, this year will be a mixed result.  But I’m still hopeful.  Though, my 27 years tell me that my hope can’t rest on my own ability, for I’ve proven my aptitude for failure.  My hope has to rest on the one who has always kept his word and who has never failed to accomplish what he has purposed.  His name is Jesus. 

Happy New Years!
Caleb

Abundant Life

Ephesians 5:15-17: Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.

The most valuable thing that we own is our life. There is no amount of money that can be placed on our life, for if we are not alive to enjoy it, money is useless. In fact, money is only useful to the extent that it can purchase more life for us. What does this mean? Well, certainly it does not mean that money can necessarily extend my life in a chronological sense. Perhaps with money I would be able to have better health care and better nutrition, and all other things being equal, could potentially extend my life chronologically. But all other things are not equal, and so this is not always the case. But the other sense in which money can purchase life for us is that it can save us time. For instance, I did not engineer the laptop that I can writing on, nor did I build the condo that I live in. But, I did spend money on both, so that I would not have to spend my time creating those things. Because of money, I am able to purchase the labor of someone else (either goods or services) so that I can spend my time how I want. This is really basic economics. Everyone in an economy has certain talents and skills to be able to produce goods/services more efficiently and/or better than the next person. Because of this it doesn’t make much sense for me to spend a year building a laptop or 2 years building a house, when I can pay someone else who can build the same things much more efficiently, thereby allowing me to spend more time on the things that I am good at.

Now what you see is that time is really just a measure of life. It is the breaking up of life into distinct measurable chunks if you will. And so ultimately, money and time really are just ways of representing life. Life is the true money and the true time. Money has no value without life. Time has no value without life. And so it is no surprise that when it comes to understanding our hearts, you can know everything there is to know about a man by what he spends his time and money on, for it is nothing more than what he spends his life on. What he spends his life on, that is what or who he worships.

Matthew 6:21 “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”

Is that not what this verse is saying? Whatever you value, as evidenced by what we spend our lives on, this is what we truly value! Our words really don’t mean that much. We can say we love Jesus, we can say we love people and care about the poor and care about injustice, but at the end of the day if our money and our time testify otherwise, then we are hypocrites and worthy of the strictest judgment! See, we don’t recognize how sinful and wicked we are because our western Christianity has relegated sin to cursing, drinking, dancing, having sex outside of marriage, and watching stuff you’re not supposed to watch. If we don’t cuss or drink, have the appearance of godly relationships and of course don’t kill anyone or otherwise break the laws of the land, then we are good Christian folk. While God still hates murder and cares about what comes out of our mouths, the bigger issue is the condition of our hearts and whether or not on a whole our hearts and entire lives are inclined toward God. The bottom line quesiton for us, is do we worship God or do we worship someone or something else? This is the measure of our righteousness.

The problem is that our hearts are wicked and we’d much rather be our own gods and spend our lives in the manner that we choose. We believe (as we have since the garden) that it would be better for us to determine what’s good for us. We have believed that somehow we know better than God what is ultimately good for us. And so it is no surpise that much of western Christianity is intensely and sickeningly self-centered and self-absorbed. From self-help to self-esteem sermons to our consumeristic mega churches to our “Christian” music with our “Christian” merchandise and and our “Christian” movies, we have created a “Christian” sub-culture geared towards pleasing the “Christian” masses. And to what avail? Is this how we are called to spend our lives in worshipping God and loving others? Shall we ride down the church escalator after service to the church coffee shop to sip lottes with our Christian friends discussing which of the church bands we like and dislike? Is this the sum of our Christian experience?

It is by the grace of God that our foolishness in how we spend the bulk of our lives is not immediately punished. Indeed it was for this foolishness that Christ endured the cross to take upon our just punishment so that by faith through his grace we would be spared of God’s wrath. But we have not be saved to continue in foolishness. Paul urges us in Ephesians to pay attention to how we walk. Paul urges us to be cognizant of how we spend our time and our lives. Why? Because the days are evil and the stakes are high and there is work to be done while we are yet here on earth. If we spend all of our lives on ourselves we will kill ourselves. Jesus says in Matthew 16 “For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” Far too often we hoard and protect our money our time and our lives, thinking that we are keeping it when we are in fact really losing it.

What would it look like for us to give our lives away? What would it look like for our paradigm of thinking to be other-focused? What if in thinking about the next house or job we get, our primary concern is how this will bless our neighbor and glorify God rather than increase our comfort? Would our testimony of how we treasure God be different than it is today? A life spent in sacrificial service to God and others may look like foolishness to the world but by God’s grace and wisdom we know that it is only then that we are genuinely living life abundantly.

Time Waster – Internet Rabbit Trailing

Something that I’ve realized today (or am seeing more clearly) is that my mind loves to think up creative ways and excuses to waste time. In the past I’ve been somewhat proud about the fact that I don’t waste time watching much television. But what I’m realizing is that often I’m wasting just as much time per day as if I had watched television.

For me, my biggest problem is probably the internet. Not so much blogging or actually doing productive activities, but just doing what I call “rabbit trailing” on the web. What happens is that I’m usually in the midst of working on something that I should be doing and then I decide that I need to be distracted for a bit and so my mind will conjure up something that I absolutely need to check on, like the weather or the stock market, or the headline news. And so I check one of those “critical” items, and then I inevitably happen upon a link to another critical item that I had not thought about previously, and so I click on that link, while I simultaneously open another tab on the browser to search for an idea or person that popped into my head from one of the articles that I just read. Before long I’ve got 17 tabs open, all of course full of mission-critical information that I had to know right now. Once 2-3 hours have gone by, I begin to realize that maybe I haven’t just been engaged in the most productive of activities.

And so this has been a common pattern in how I approach spending my time. I am continually lured into internet rabbit trailing by my evil and wicked heart that does not want to focus on that which is truly meaningful and important. I’d rather tickle my ears and thoughts with entertaining morsels of gossip and quench my thirst for fantasizing about Seattle actually having a good sports team or about me being a presidential debater or someone else that I will never be. Maybe I should just focus on being me and doing what God has given me to do? But that would be too easy then, now would it?

Book Review: Do Hard Things by Alex and Brett Harris

Do Hard Things

Do Hard Things is a book geared towards teenagers written by a set of teenage twins, Alex and Brett Harris, who believe that our culture has low expectations for the youth of today. They are on a mission to motivate teens across the nation and even the world to step up an do hard things for Christ.

The Harris twins begin the book by arguing that the term teenager is a relatively new concept where a teenager is physically grown but is not expected to have the responsibilities of an adult. However they argue that this was not the case 100 and more years ago. In most societies during most times, boys became men at an early age generally at some point shortly after puberty when they begin to gain adult strength. If they could do the work of an adult, then they were considered an adult. However, once a law was made that mandated that children be educated through high school, the expectations for teens to contribute to society diminished and thus we have the consumeristic teen culture of today.

But if Alex and Brett Harris have their way, teens all across the globe will no longer see themselves as adolescents that have no responsibility or expectations to benefit their society. Teens will become “rebolutionaries” or those who rebel against a culture of low expectations and begin to revolutionize what the world believes teens can accomplish.

The Harris twins break the book up into three parts, the first dealing with misconceptions of what the teen years are supposed to be about, the second listing the types of hard things that teens should do and strive for, and third the vision and stories of what it looks like to live a life doing hard things.

Overall, I found this to be an easy read with a convicting and hard message. I’m only 26 years old, but I already feel the gravity of the sense of urgency of the call to so something meaningful and impactful with my life. Reading this book has made me feel that I’ve already wasted 10+ years of usefulness to my community for the sake of the gospel. I was encouraged by the many examples of teens sometimes 11 or 12 years younger than myself accomplishing things that many 40 and 50 year olds are too afraid to do. The twins inspire hope. Hope that I, despite my failings and apathy, can awake from my slumber and serve God and my community with a new and infectious zeal that would carry forth with accomplishments and fruit that I would never have thought possible.

My only critique of the book would be that it is very heavily dominated by examples of hard things and words that would encourage the possibility of doing hard things. While these are necessary and good, I would have like to have seen a bit more substance behind why we choose to do the hard things. We obviously shouldn’t choose to do hard things just because they are difficult. But rather, there is something intrinsic about certain “hard things” that is rewarding, valuable, and worth doing. The Harris twins did a little bit of this, but could have added more depth by going into additional detail behind the nature of the intrinsic value of certain hard things.

That critique aside, I still believe that this is a very good book, not only for teens, but also for those post-teenagers that want more from there life than the current rut they feel their in. I know that I was definitely encouraged by the Harris twins and motivated to step out of my comfort zone in order to participate in the gospel more boldly.

Breakfast of Champions

Well it’s been a while since I’ve written. In the mean time, I went fishing for the first time ever. I’ve always wanted to be able to catch my own food and eat it, so a friend from church invited me to go with him to mineral lake to fish for trout. It apparently wasn’t the best time of the year for fishing in this lake, but we were able to catch four medium-small rainbow trout that we fried up for “breakfast” around 4:30 in the afternoon. We rounded out the meal with three fried eggs and bacon. Now that’s what I call a well-balanced meal.

The Wrong Way to Fight Lust

Recently on a sunny late morning I decided to go to the Ross Thrift store to exchange a couple of items for store credit. Well the customer service person so happens to be a very attractive Hispanic woman. I told myself, since I’m reading Mortification of Sin, that I will just ignore her to prevent any lusteth of the eyes. She greeted me pleasantly enough. I said hi, but made an effort not to really pay her much attention other than what was necessary for the transaction to take place. So then she asks me how my day is going. I reply “nice, but I’m a little tired.” She fumbles around with the tags a bit, and then finally prints out the receipt and hands me the gift card. “Thanks and have a nice day” she said. I said “You too” and walked away feeling a little proud that I had been holy and not lusted over her. But is this really the way to fight lust?

No more than 10 minutes later did I start to feel bad about what I did. I realized that what I did was very flawed. The whole reason why lust is so insidious is that it completely objectifies women and doesn’t treat them as a real person. What I had just done was really not any better. I had ignored her, and in so doing, failed to recognize the real person that I was transacting with. This gives me deep sadness even as I write this, because here was an opportunity to not just refrain from lusting, but to positively engage someone as a person and perhaps by God’s grace bless her in some way. Satan would probably love that I stop lusting, if he knew that I would never engage another woman as a person again.

And as I continue to think about this, I don’t just do this to hot women who I might lust over. I do this to the grocery store clerk, the bank teller, the fast food worker…and on. We live in such a consumerist society that I believe we begin to see the men and women who work in the service sector as no more than ATMs. We go up and make our transaction and split. Is this the standard of holiness that God calls us to? As long as I don’t do anything bad, I’m okay? I’m afraid that this is just another example of how we’ve created our own standard of holiness and have completely missed the foundation of all of God’s commands, namely to love; both God and fellow man. The foundation of the law is not don’t but do. Abstaining from something is one thing, and is often of value. However, to always love God and others, with a deep sacrificial love is a much more radical call and one that we cannot ignore or water down if we desire to be called followers of Christ.

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Fuel for the Purpose Driven Life

1 Corinthians 9:24-27 – “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.”

As I was reading Mortification of Sin by John Owen last night, I ran into the above referenced verse.  Right now in my life, I believe that this is the biggest thing that God is working on.   As I look towards becoming an elder, the qualifcation of being self-controlled is the one which I least fulfill, especially in regards to lust and slothfulness, and even also evidenced sometimes in my eating habits.  Thankfully, God has given me a hope and an optimism that he will continue to work in me a change of heart that will lead to a life that is much more in line which what Paul wrote in 1 Corinthians 9.  On the one hand, that verse exposes my deficient character, while yet on the other hand, it gives me great hope, that if God can turn a regular sinner like Paul into one who is on the balance self-controlled and disciplined with the laser-focused purpose of living for Christ, then he can also do the same with me.  I pray that God would enable me to submit more and more of myself consistently to the will of God, so that I might glorify God in all that I do and that I might have as Owen writes “The vigor, and power, and comfort of our spiritual life” as I lean on God to put to death the works of the flesh.

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Book Review: Biblical Eldership by Alexander Strauch

Biblical Eldership, by Alexander Strauch, seeks to clarify what it means to be a biblical elder in light of what Strauch believes are widespread distortions and departures from that which is laid out by scripture. Strauch breaks out his book into four parts: Biblical Eldership, Defense of Biblical Eldership, The Exposition of Scripture, and Related Topics. In the first part Strauch defines biblical eldership as including five types of leadership: Pastoral, Shared, Male, Qualified, and Servant Leadership. He argues that all these aspects of leadership are what biblically define an elder. However, what we typically see in the church today is a view of eldership that is quite different. Often elders are considered to be church board members that are distinct in their office and function from a pastor. Strauch writes, “When most Christians hear of church elders, they think of an official church board, lay officials, influential people within the local church, or advisors to the pastor. They think of elders as policymakers, financial officers, fund raisers, or administrators. They don’t expect church elders to teach the Word or be involved pastorally in the lives of people.” But scripture knows nothing of this view of eldership. In 1 Peter 5:2, peter exhorts the elders to shepherd the flock of God. This idea of an elder as shepherd brings into view much more about the duties and responsibilities required of an elder than that of mere fundraising or administration. But rather the bible uses the metaphor of a shepherd to describe the fullness of what God intends for the elder/pastor to do and be about. We are called to be shepherd elders that protect, feed, lead, and care for the practical needs of the flock.

In the second part of the book, Strauch begins a defense of biblical eldership. Strauch argues in this Chapter that an elder governed church is not an option but the God-ordained means of organizing and leading his church; and not just one elder but a plurality of elders. He finds his support in Acts and several epistles that reference multiple elders that presumably oversee one church. Furthermore, in the epistles, there are instructions about elders given to the church and instruction and exhortation given directly to elders. These included, calling the elders to pray for the sick, financially supporting the elders, protecting elders from false accusation, choosing qualified elders, overseeing the church, guarding the church from false doctrine, and having a humble spirit and living at peace with one another.

In part 3, Strauch seeks to exegete all the key passages of scripture that deal with eldership to further support his earlier statements on what constitutes biblical eldership. He begins with a brief synopsis of what historical Jewish Elders did and how that institution and structure influenced the early Christian elders. He called out that these early Jewish Christian elders were responsible for things like: receiving and administering money, judging doctrinal issues, and providing counsel and resolving conflict. He then points out how Paul appointed elders in the gentile churches. Strauch goes through what appears to be an exhaustive list of verses in the new testament that deal with examples of functions that elders carried out to three lists of elder qualifications. Overall, I think that he does a commendable job of exegesis of these scriptures. The weight of his argument stems from the vast array of scriptures that support his defense of a church governed by a plural eldership. I will admit, that I came in biased in favor of his viewpoint, and thus am predisposed to finding his arguments more compelling than perhaps one who is committed to a more hierarchical model. Finally in part 4, Strauch concludes with biblical guidance on how we ought to appoint elders and what the relationship between the elders and the church should look like.

Overall, Strauch used well-thought out reasoning with ample scriptural support (complete with the underlying greek words and meanings where necessary) in order to successfully defend a biblical view of eldership that he sees as being plural, male, and with functions and responsibilities that are most clearly seen in the imagery of the shepherd. One of the strongest points of this book is the implicit challenge to men who are or aspire to be elders, to shepherd the flock in way that is true to the full calling that God has given them. By the grace of God and under the ultimate leadership of Christ, elders have an immense responsibility to shepherd and oversee the flock of God. Elders will be held to a higher accountability due to the influential nature of their calling. Elders everywhere need to read this book and ask tough questions about their leadership, their submission to God, their ability to protect and guard the flock, their willingness to serve the flock. If elders do not take responsibility, if elders treat the qualifications as optional, then the flock will suffer dearly and perhaps even be devoured by wolves.

I don’t think this book has many weaknesses. I think at times, Strauch draws out inferences from the text and states them as fact. For instance, when speaking of the apostles’ choice in setting up a church government he writes, “In adopting this familiar form of government, we can be certain that the apostles choice was no arbitrary decision. Prayer and the Spirit’s leading guided the twelve apostles and the first Jewish Christian community to establish leadership by a council of elders.” Really, we can be certain? I’m not so sure about that. Perhaps they selected that form of government over one of many possibly good choices? Maybe the elder-led government was meant to work well for their context but not necessarily for all peoples in all times? Though, in the end I generally agree with all his conclusions, there were some points, where I believe he concluded more strongly than the evidence allowed for. That said, I believe that Strauch has a prophetic voice in the area of biblical eldership and that the broader church would benefit from heeding his call to restore biblical church leadership.

Buffet Man

I am the Buffet Man. Alone I travel, alone I live, and alone I eat. Strangers I greet, but do not meet.
Go to the table with the single seat. Survey the stations with the choicest meat.

I am the Buffet Man. Single-minded, double-handed, grab a plate. Take the line with the shortest wait.
Speed up the time with a quicker gait. Take what’s good and leave what I hate.

I am the Buffet Man. Supremely focused at the task at hand. Devouring my food according to plan.
Meticulous, like building castles in the sand. While my belly tests the strength of my waistband.

I am the Buffet Man. Plate one, plate two, plate three. Looking around the room it’s plain to see.
There are other men here just like me. Is it buffet men we’re striving to be?

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