It’s been a while since I’ve posted here.  My hope is that I would post on wiselad.com regularly about what I am learning in life and that this might help others.  I believe that God has gifted me with teaching ability, and so as I learn to navigate this world with wisdom, I hope to be able to share my lesson’s learned so that others can perhaps avoid some pitfalls.

 So right now I am struggling with what to write down.  It seems as if everytime I think about trying to come up with something to put on this blog my brain freezes and I can’t think of anything.  So I’ve just decided to myself that I will just post whatever is on my mind.  The quality may not be great, but at least I’ll get in the habit of writing every day.  So we’ll see how it goes.  No more excuses.

 Today, work was a little painful.  In one of my meetings, I didn’t take control to the degree that I needed to and so my boss took it away from me.  That was frustrating because I felt as if I wasn’t good enough at running meetings.  I hate feeling inadequate!  And so I thought about how I should be taking this.  Should I be angry with my boss?  Probably not.  He had a point wanting to get some control over the meeting.  I think it was hurtful because it was a blow to my pride.  I like to think that I can handle all situations all the time, but unfortunately that’s just not the case.  It’s humbling to realize that I frequently make mistakes, even when I am giving my best effort.  Throughout my life, I’ve generally attributed by failures to not giving my best effort.  And usually that’s been the case.  However, I think God is showing me that I can even fail when I do give my best effort, and that I have to learn how to deal with failure.  I need to learn how to bounce back and retain my confidence, because God is still with me, even in the midst of apparent failure.  Tommorrow, I will be running that same meeting again.  I am confident that I will maintain control and keep to schedule.